To my friend

This is for a friend of mine, who just passed away last Monday. I don't know where to write this, segan nak tulis kt his FB wall. Because I'm not that close with him.


I met him during my middle school's Eid reunion. We exchange our number and talked a little. Had some conversations online. Just casual ones. He was not in my class so I knew him only through messages and FB. So I only know a small part of your life.


I feel weird that you are gone now. Because when I see your FB profile, you are still smiling with your friends in your university. I still remember how you used to post islamic things on FB, and your reminders never were annoying or anything, just pleasant ones. Your jokes were never something that hurts people's feeling. I didn't have enought time to get to know you much, but you were such a pleasant, nice young man.

When I first got the news, I didn't know that it was you. Because I didn't know your full(real) name. I called you by your nickname only. Just today, after 4pm, when I was checking news feed, I saw an update from your account, about jenazah. I felt weird. So I went to your wall, and was surprised that there were many condolences messages from your friends. I thought it was your family or friends, but when I scrolled down the page, I saw another update made by your dad, announcing about you. I also read online news page about your accident. A familiar face was smiling on the news. There was nothing unusual on that face. But the title showed otherwise, that you are gone.


I don't know how people deal with their beloved ones' death. I only met you a few time, chat a little, and saw your updates on FB only. But this is really hard for me.


Maybe because you was a good boy. Maybe because you were studying abroad just like me. There's many maybes. But difinitely your death has affected me. A lot. I'm sure that Allah want me to realiza something, something that I have been taken for granted. Something I should be prepared before it's my turn.


Many people are sad because you are not here anymore. So many people love and will miss you, but Allah love you more. You will be in our du'a forever as long as we are still here, because you are such a good friend.

Al-fatihah for you.