hati berbelah

I already bought a ticket to returning to Japan, it's on 13th April. Since the flight is at night, I will only able to be in Tokyo at afternoon. What makes me worry is I have a lot of things to be settle, tons of bills to pay, and plus all school things to be done. :(
Yesterday I checked 2ch, it is a huge site, people will write so many info on it, and you got to decide which info is worth to trust and which is not. I checked some pages for penghuni Tokyo, and some of them said that Tokyo is not safe because the water is contaminated and some new substance were found from soil around Fukushima daiichi and that thing can travel so fast by wind due to it's weight and can destroy whole Japan by only 5 sugar cube size. Of course there are some of them said that Tokyo is still safe, water is not safe to small kids only, it won't affect us adults. About the substance, it is safe if you wear a mask whenever you are going out. The substance can make 1 from 100 people die, half of them get cancer. Then one guy/girl say "hey, we Japanese, half of us will die of cancer so what the difference? Let's live a good life before we die!". Haha true! We will die eventually so why are you so afraid of it? Maybe people (include me) scared from this disaster, nuclear plan one and not earthquake, is because people hate something they don't know or can't see and something painful. Cancer is painful and radiation cannot be seen by our eyes and it will takes years to discover it's effect.

However, I decided to not to worry about the radiation or water or veg (though I will not consume vegs from Fukui, sorry Fukui people,:'( , I will live my life everyday thanking for Allah for what He has gave to me, reach my fullest potential and yeah, I will be happy then, insyaallah. =D

Oh nono, I don't wanna write about it anymore because I don't read that much about radiation thing and it's just not my kepakaran. So I'm gonna write about me, what's on my mind.

Like I said it in early part of this entry, I have a lot of things to do. Memang kalau ikutkan hati, nak balik cepat lah untuk selesaikan bill, hutang, hal university, hal kursus lagi. I ada join satu NGO, die hantar international students like me to japanese local schools and let us talk about our country. However since they give some money to us for that,so I feel like it's a big amanah, a job, and like I am representing my country and my religion too. If I did something not professional like forgetting the date for kursus or come late, I'm humiliating myself and all what I represent for. Tak nak la cmtu kan. :(
Nak dijadikan ceritanya. hari ni dorg tu hantar email, reminder for those haven't sent resume and edited version of module. The problem is I can't receive the form for resume (I TERbuang and I have to get a new one) because I was away from Japan quite long and when I returned in 14march, it was chaos by the earthquake, and now I'm in Malaysia. 16 ni ada kursus and takut saya patut bawak benda2 yg dia nak tu time tu, tapi camne laaaaa saya nak sediakan semua tu kalau saya sampai rumah pun petang 14? waaaaaa pening2! nasi dah jadi bubur sekarang, sebab saya dah beli tiket, tiket murah yang tak leh tukar tarikh, so tak guna pun kalau saya berangan "kalaulah saya dapat selesaikan semua hal, kalaulah saya tak balik Malaysia hari tu". Lagi pun I have to pack my stuff here, we are going to move to our new house!

Therefore, what I have to do now is;
1. Pack my stuff untuk pindah
2. Eat malaysian food ( eh nak makan lagi?tak cukup tembam ke?lol)
3. List up what I have to settle sebaik sahaja mendarat di Narita tu
4. Enjoy my free time because I will miss it for sure, I will have to go to uni for 6days a week starting from middle of May, and I'm going to learn new language, Spanish and continue my study in French, insyaAllah.:) Plus I will be one of AJK for big event for our discussion club in June. Wow this semester will be soooo hectic but I will enjoy it!